Has anyone ever asked you this before? It's a popular movie line too. And I know I have asked my kids rhetorically, don't you trust me? As if it would be an easy no brainer. But it's not easy to trust others and it's especially not easy to trust God, at least not in the day to day minutia.
I had the very real practical application of trust recently that got me thinking. Do I trust God? Sure in my head. But what about practically, in the moments? I turned 50 recently and my dear husband knew I wanted something big to mark the occasion. He likes to surprise me and I enjoy surprises, but I didn't want this opportunity missed either. I was fussin' a bit to certain confidants that I didn't want to know the surprise, I just wanted someone to reassure me I'd like it. It really didn't help that my sisters said they hadn't heard or been invited to anything- which wasn't true, so it freaked me out just a little. Luckily, I can talk to my Dad and he wisely reminded me; Trust Your Husband. Ahh, yes, that is what I need to do. At that reminder, I worked on resting and trusting that he had it all under control. hmm, just like I need to rest and trust that HE has it all under control. A fitting parallel.
I did better on the actual day. At first I thought Saturday was going to be 'our' day and his event would be Sunday. [He had me block out both days]. We had a fancy breakfast and he seemed to have all day plans. . . but soon it became a bit obvious that he was stalling for time. At one point we stopped at a dollar store with an excuse he needed a bandana. Finally, at a home store, after cruising up and down several aisles claiming he was researching prices, we headed back to the car where he told me to put on the bandana. This was it. Was I going to just trust him and wear this bandana for the duration? I didn't know how long it was going to take.
After what seemed like driving in circles, on and off the highway and around parking lots, he finally parked. [maybe he didn't go anywhere?!] With great anticipation, I kept running several possibilities of where we could be going in my head. I knew that soon all would be revealed and I would know all the answers. Wow, if we could keep that perspective with God, how much more at peace we would be with daily living!
Now it was time for the hard part. He had to lead me up the curb, down a sidewalk [I guess], up a few steps, down a hallway, across a room up another step or two and then turned me around. Several times he would walk beside or behind me, but what I really wanted was him in front so I wouldn't fall! I had to lean on him and trust him that he wouldn't let me do that! And this experience really brought home how much my husband and I can truly trust one another. We are not always perfect, but a little reminder is all we need to trust completely. I was feeling greatly blessed and continue to feel so as I reflect on not only the wonderful event, but the trust I can have for him. I pray I never lose it. And I pray that it will be a constant reminder to trust my Heavenly Father just as much.
